Perspective

I had one of those Ah-Ha moments after returning home from my unexpectedly lengthened trip to California. I don’t know about you, but I find it stressful returning home after being away. This time was especially difficult because I didn’t expect to be away so long. I call this re-entry pain. Not only was my husband a bachelor with a puppy for a week, the house was pretty much in a shambles before we left because of 2 returning college students and packing for our trip. So, greeting me was a messy house, backed up bills, school supplies needed immediately and work the next day. Just normal stuff, but piled high. So in the evening, the day after our return, I found solace in walking my dog. I, however, in the desire to save time, found myself making phone calls on my cell. I was trying to maximize time and get things crossed off of my list. So I mistakenly took a peaceful time and created a stressful experience. As I was speaking to the person on the phone, I realized within seconds of speaking to him/her that they drain my energy. Literally within seconds, my head was shaking and I said “What am I doing? “ The energy of this person is just so different from mine and almost feels like an affront to my being. I have had these feelings before with this person, but being away, relaxed and out of my element for a time made this experience seem so much more intense. So I stood there, in the middle of my street and realized, I don’t need to voluntarily submit myself to this. I don’t need to have this person in my life if I don’t want too. It made me think of all the things I don’t need to subject myself too. I only need to surround myself with people and things that are good and positive. I only need influences that are loving, nurturing and good for my soul. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I am not sure if impatience, wisdom or spirit caused this moment of clarity, but I am grateful for it. Starting today, I will be purposeful in whom I have in my life. I will do my best to only choose people who are good for me. If I have to have dealings with someone I don’t resonate with, I will be respectful and just keep it to a minimum. I knew this mentally, this was just the first time I could feel it in my psyche and it hit me hard. So I will listen now, for sure. So can you……..